UNDERSTANDING TERRA!!!

I was three months from the house!!!Thats what you say when your that close to the street!!!I was already technically paroled just waiting for paperwork and transport!!My intentions were to keep my nose clean for those three weeks and get my mind right and slide out of that place with as lil drama as i could keep at bay!! So they took me to a kind of pre-release prison to help you get ready to leave....Bad start!!! This place had just been built hence the heavy drug gang and multiple other crimes that flooded these new facilities!!!The transport delivered me to the facility with about three months til my release...I hit the tank and waited for my property...As i sat the elevator opened..i looked in and swallowed then smiled and got up.....My longtime prison crime partner who was like my brother was standing there smiling...Jose..aka snoopy aka Jason aka Joe stood there smiling...I shook my head and hugged my homeboy...He laughed and said ..We own the place...The guards the help the kitchen the laundry facility it was all ours!!!He said lets roll...I told the guard to have a guard find me when my property was ready!!Snoopy stepped in and told him send everything to TJ and nodded and the guard nodded back n looked me over then nodded..i nodded back and left!!!Snoopy said he knew i was on transport and i he arranged a bunk in his dorm...You have to remember i came directly from a very high level security to a place like this...fucking Disneyland!!!I met the fellas and said hi to a lot of guys a knew already!!!So anyhow over the next few months i basically forgot about the straight and narrow and told myself this is who you are..dont act like you dont know..dont try and be somebody you aint...you built this rep ..use it!!!So three months of dirt...we ran everything we could get away with and its just funny how soon you forget whats important to you!!!Tattooing in prison will get you three things....number 1 a trip to the hole for 30..number two your parole will be revoked...number three you get higher points and sent to higher security prisons for high points!!!So heres my situation...Snoopy was known to be one of the best freehand tattooist in the prison system..To go along with that he hadn't done a tatoo in more then six years because he too was almost done there and avoiding trying to make it to his final destination and cross the finish line..You see prison ink is earned...even the non gang related tatts..No ones gonna give you there time in any form unless you are somebody to them...somebody important to them...With me and snoopy well im the one that put him in touch with his 7 year old son he had never met...Yep i had my son call his son on three way while snoopy listened to the answers to the questions he mailed to my son to ask his osn...are you mad a t your daddy??do you know Jason??ect ect...So ya he owed me...And this was time to make it right...when i asked he put his head down on the table and didn't say anything....about an hour later he spoke...Im gonna do it for you homie...lets get everything in order and get it done!!!Im sure he put his head down and went over the consequences in his mind...Heres a guy who was 36 years old and been in adult prison since he was 13..Yes tried as an adult and been there for it all..His son was conceived way back when there were conjugal visits...Anyway we had a guard bring ink..an electric toothbrush and some sterilizing equipment needles ect...Next i rounded up my lookouts for the one or two guards who walked the straight and narrow..not all guards are for sale...some have no price...So with all the precautions taken we got down to bizz!!! snoopy rolled deodorant across my neck and placed a pattern of the fancy letters inked up and pressed the pattern on my neck..he held it there and pulled the paper away...the ink left a pattern of letters across my neck and i looked at it with a hand mirror from all angles..he nodded i nodded and i sat down in a chair..i leaned over and tilted my head..Snoopy is a hand pick tatt artist so this adds to the whole event...some guys use machines but i dealt with ogs mostly...snoopy asked if i was ready and i nodded..i clenched my teeth and his hand moved fast...i remember thinking i hope i aint being hit right now...snoopy was a close friend but thats usually who they send!! i closed my eyes and felt the needle tap my skin..tap! tap! tap!! just like Deangelo tap tap...i bled alot and it went on for 3 hours...when i opened my eyes there she was!!! TERRA!!! My niece who id yet to meet!! I carried her ever year since she was waiting to breathe..after i got her name tatted on my neck i looked at it in the mirror and smiled...i was proud!! I will always be proud!!! the beautiful life i live now...well i do it for her too!!! One day i walked over to a prison phone and called MJ collect..before we started talking he interrupted me and told me his lady was pregnant....i looked at the ground and cried...i told him im sorry i wont be home when your firstborn arrives!!!The thing is i am here now!!! i do it for her too!!!