Thursday, December 16, 2010

HARD WIRED!!!

On the radio i heard this talk show host say he's has to work at it to be a good person....As for me well ya i buy it....I have to work some too...It's hard at the good times and that's why i write about it..My sons graduating from high school this June and i can't go!!..My ignorant sporadic past has brought me here....About 3 days or so ago my sons mama brought me down from my cloud and reminded who i am....not what i am but who i was when i progressed.. When i left that life per say??Ya the holidays are a celebration but also time the tongue is loose...it seems if i attend my son's grad night other forces that be may have the upper hand...Talk im sure but it's about my son..it's his day...i can't taint that night...he'd be proud either way but im trying to wIn HIM over still you see??Our paths must be righteous from here on out do you understand??It's hard to sell a righteous plight with a scattered past...Anyways im exhausted..I really am...I just wanted to come here and tell you its burns me inside that my sons cap and gown will be thrown in the air but i will only see it on an email or you tube at best... But hey...you gotta give it your best im told...you know i mean what's the alternative???Letting em know who you are???Well WHO ARE YOU THEN???i LOVE MY SON....WE ARE ALMOST AT THE FINISH LINE T...AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER RACE....BUT LET'S JUST GET THROUGH THIS ONE OKAY BABY BOY???

3 comments:

mj said...

1 at a time, bro...

tinhearts said...

Love you my sonshine!
xox

tinhearts said...

We are so proud of you as we see the happiness radiate from you. It brings us to much joy seeing you transform and walk in the light. Now you know what being a parent is and how it is a continued transformation on a one day at a time journey. We all have gone through different trials and have changed drastically through these pruning times. I haven't been the best example all the time for you all but I was doing the best I could do at the time and now, I am on a new road that is making me better and brand new to a life of total freedom from the past. I got tired of disappointing myself and never being up to par to say. I can no longer look back but look forward to the sun's rays guiding me into more and more of what I was always struggling to find and know personally now!
Thank you for your inspiring words of great hope!
God Bless you always!
xox